On the second night of my voyage of self rediscovery I had the wonderful opportunity to make love to a woman.
That might not sound too unusual, except that I have lived as a gay man for all of my adult life. So this is a first for me. And the experience was magical and so romantic. I am still a gay man of course, but I am very grateful for this opportunity to explore areas I haven't explored before. And for me, it has set a tone of openness to new discoveries that is the purpose of this voyage.
As I start a new chapter in my life, I have this unique opportunity to disconnect temporarily from my busy and wonderful life as a restaurant owner to explore myself inward. I have traveled a great deal in the past. The purpose of this voyage is different. Although I am traveling to the other end of the earth, this is a voyage of introspection.
I have 3 hopes for this voyage.
First, I want to learn to enjoy living on my own. I have been so lucky to have lived with 2 amazing men for nearly all of the past 35 years. Now I am single and I want to enjoy myself.
Second, I hope to explore the benefits of letting go and of quietening my mind.
Over the past couple of years, I have learned how to intentionally let go of my compulsion to control things around me. I had serious control issues. And my trying to control everything wasn't making me happier or pleasant to be around. I have found that nearly every time I 'let go' of my impulse to control events or people, life flows more smoothly and the outcome are better than those I envisioned. And so on this voyage, I don't know exactly where I am headed, but I am joyful that life will mysteriously and magically unfold in ways better than if I plan everything.
I have also started meditating every day for 5-15m. And I am happier and calmer nearly all the time. I make better decisions. I am more pleasant to be with. And I am happier. It's like I've been able to change the vibrations of my mind. And so I am going to explore that more in India and Nepal for a short time. I contacted an ashram in Nepal and hope to stay there a few days.
And finally, I hope to explore many of Asia's beautiful beaches.